God has done so many great things in my life. He has helped me through tough times and answered so many prayers - even the small everyday things. At times when I have been greatly stressed I learnt to give all my worry over to him and as a result felt complete peace and joy in the midst of all that was going on - and that is simply incredible!
So, I was lying face down on my bed. It was about 4am, one night in my first year at university and I was feeling absolutely exhausted, but my heart was still pumping with the caffeine from red bull & pro plus.
Two weeks after the funeral I returned to The University for my second year. It wasn’t the same; I missed my dad. I spent my days feeling sad and then trying not to feel sad. Mostly I attempted this by drinking, comfort eating, skipping lectures and finding comfort in different relationships.
Dead. I wanted to be dead. I wanted Death’s arms to envelope me and take me from this life: a life full of pain, abuse, abandonment, disappointment, hatred; I didn’t want it anymore. Oh, sweet surrender! Come Death, come!
If you feel disconnected from God today, I encourage you to take just 5 minutes to come closer to Him in worship. Sometimes that’s all it takes! This lovely new song by Steffany Gretzinger is called “Sing My Way Back.” When I lose direction When I can’t see the stars If we get disconnected I’ll sing my way back to Your heart I’ll sing my way back to Your arms
If you’d like, let’s combine two of these keys to having a “high-speed” connection with God (praising Him in song and being grateful) by worshipping Him with this song, “Thank You” by JJ Heller. :-)
