You grow in the dark

In the past, I used to want to be seen. And I want to take you back into that season with me today, because I wasn’t always who I am now. It’s been a journey. A journey of grace. 🙏🏻

The Déborah I was back then wanted success, applause, attention. And I got it—for a moment. As the “singing flight attendant,” I suddenly found myself in the spotlight. Every invitation was a new stage. Another red carpet. Every celebrity photo felt like a small piece of worth. I was hungry for visibility.

And then… It went quiet. The media moved on to the next hype. I was no longer in demand. No record deal. No cameras. No audience.

I was frustrated. Hurt. Discouraged. And over and over again, my producer asked me: “Are you willing to keep growing even when the light isn’t on you?”

That question hit deep—because it exposed me. Was my drive really my faith? To share hope through music, as my journal so beautifully said? Or was it just about being seen? Did I want to believe, to hope, to give—even when no one clapped?

“Those who sow with tears will reap with songs of joy.” (Psalm 126:5 NLT)

That verse became real for me. Because the many hidden years that followed were hard. They were lonely. And they were healing. I learned to let go. To persevere. To trust God, even when I couldn’t see a thing.

And I came to fully understand: More fulfilling than being seen yourself, is seeing Jesus be seen through you.

But to understand that, you have to walk that road yourself. Yes, you have to experience it.

Today I know that nothing is wasted in the dark. That’s where roots are formed. Character is shaped. True depth doesn’t grow in the spotlight—it grows in the secret place.

So today, I pass this question on to you: Are you willing to keep going—even when no one sees you?

You are a miracle!